Thursday, January 13, 2011
i brainstormed @ 2:41 AM
Oh crap. My body's damn near failed me today. I really need to stop shortchanging myself in the sleep department. After having done only some simple workouts, I started seeing stars and felt like ralphing. Never happened before.Even at dinner, while I was standing at the lok-lok truck, I started feeling the same sensations I felt during the last Skytrex outing, which was an epic failure btw. Especially since I just breezed through the obstacle course the first time around.Anyway I started feeling woozy and all the blood rushed to my head. I could feel my ears start to go numb, as did my hands. Worse, I could feel a slight pain in my gut, although only God knows why or from what. Worst was when I could feel my legs start to go a little numb too, which usually meant that having jelly-like legs would soon follow. Damn, I should've just gone to sleep the moment I got home, but I was just too hungry lol.And just in case you're wondering why I'm typing this sort of nonsense (again), it's in the vain hope of distracting myself from ranting about something. Even as I think about that particular something, I get all irritated and pissed off. I think I'll mull it over good and proper first, before actually writing about it because I have a tendency to be blunt; and my bluntness, paired with my choice of words more often than not offends people; and the people who will likely be offended by what I wish to rant about actually do drop by this blog from time to time.All I can say is this: I really loathe how some of the girls of our generation have turned out to be. Which are mostly petty and overdramatic divas. Seriously, just because you act all prim and proper, with your hands folded in your lap and do your best to refrain from laughing when someone actually tells a funny joke doesn't mean you are oh-so-grown up and mature. It just kinda makes us think you're a stick in the mud and that you've possibly a stick up your arse. Seriously, you don't think your attempts to suppress EVERY emotion were super subtle, do you? I mean, it's not that hard to take notice of something (or rather, someone) who's behaving very oddly.Pair that with the fact that deep down, you're actually a Gossip Girl-type through and through. You love drama. Deny it all you want but just because you think you're mature, you have the authority to dictate what drama is and isn't. Sorry, that's not quite how it works lar, little girl. You find faults with boys who approach you with sincerity and with their hearts in their hands. You say that their honesty and transparency takes the fun and/or suspense out of discovering each other in the future. Grow up la kiddo. Stop watching so much TV. It only gives you crazy ideas and crazy ideals. Ideals that, by the way, can be easily acted out by someone who's insincere and after something else.I initially reserved my criticisms and gave you some leeway because I thought that maybe it all boiled down to personal preferences. But the more I heard your side of story, the more I realized that your priorities are more than a little messed up. And that you guys are still young. For someone as young as myself to find you unbearably childish is saying a lot, trust me. What's worse is that you think nobody can see it. Sigh, I've already said too much.I will say this though: You are not as grown up as you think you are. Get real.And to the person who I said this to this afternoon and the others who heard it, if you're reading this, the above are my reasons for having said that. I try to avoid talking out of my arse as much as I can okay, and it's not like I'm providing my support to the party whom I personally prefer. It's just that I'm so miffed that you girls find problems with every small thing the other guy does whereas you're incapable of taking a good look at yourselves. I'm even willing to bet that you girls are impossible to please. Too much info, and you girls complain. Omit or withhold info, and you girls will complain too. And I'm even willing to bet that if you girls were to share something like this with my man's dad, you girls will be the one who will get the tongue-lashing because clearly, you've got some zany ideas in your head and your priorities when it comes to choosing a mate have been wrongly ordered. I tell you, you sure kena marah kau kau from him wan. Why? Because these are the kind of menial matters that a lot of failed relationships revolve around.Again, I'm trying to avoid talking out of my arse. I heard you out and I heard him out, and clearly, you girls are the one with standards that belong on the sets of Beverly Hills 90210. And in case you haven't yet noticed, all those dramas you girls love so much revolve around tons of FAILED relationships. Shouldn't that already be a clue? Try and hear me out. I don't want to put myself on a pedestal and seem more holier than thou, but you girls seriously make my blood boil sometimes. Why do you think your gang is almost entirely made up of people who cannot seem to hold down a relationship or even get one despite having tried hard? It sounds stereotypical, I know. I hate myself for using this as ammo but I honestly do think that that is huge clue right there.
Birds of a feather flock together.Clearly you guys are not the kind who are in for the long haul.
I'm sorely disappointed.
I apologize for having to tread on some toes and having to hurt some feelings here. I know I sound self-righteous. But I'm not going to bother trying to refute that or to try to alter your opinion of me because I have a feeling all that would be in vain — you girls are too prissy to consider what others have to contribute. Especially when it's something unfavourable of yourselves. So, think what you want. Plus, I'm not perfect and infallible anyway, so what I've just written may be moot, and you girls could be the rare exception to the rule.
But, if you can see and understand my points of view (although not necessarily accept them), then I'm glad. If you can't, then to each his own, good luck and godspeed.
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