Wednesday, November 24, 2010
i brainstormed @ 12:57 AM
Let me warn you that this particular post is very personal. So chances are, you won't be able to understand what the hell I'm yapping about. Lol.You have been warned.I don't know which I feel more acutely now — guilt or relief. I do feel quite a bit of guilt for having chosen to simply walk by you earlier tonight and pretend that I hadn't seen you. But I can't deny that I'm also relieved you didn't try and stop me.A small part of me wanted nothing more than to stop to have a chat and catch up on what's new with you. But as of what happened about two weeks ago, my guard is up and it's not coming down anytime soon.I see what Mom and 3 Yi mean now.I used to side with you because I always felt that you were the one who inevitably got shortchanged in life but I can sort of see now how that is something that you have brought upon yourself. But you don't even realize it.It really isn't my place to say anything. But if I had my druthers, I can honestly say that I wouldn't know where to begin or end with you. Thankfully, it isn't my place to say anything about everything you've done and everything that you are.All I know is that from the treasures of your heart, your mouth speaketh. Or something like that. Point is, what you so tactlessly let loose from your tongue the other day really forced me to re-consider everything. I definitely love you and care for you. But the fact is that the people you love can disappoint you.Labels: ramblings, thoughts
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